May 4, 2013

Contentment

Nothing says conviction like both of your daily devotionals being about the same thing.  Does this happen to anybody else? It always opens my eyes and ears when I realize that God is trying to teach me something important so bluntly.  That lesson today is contentment.  I had no idea until today how much discontentment had taken over my heart.  

Just a couple examples that God has shown me just today:

Yes, I am content with being in Georgia because it is in the south.  However, if you know anything about how the minor league system works, it is not the goal to be content with where you are.  The whole point is to perform well at the level you are at so that they will move you up to a higher level.  So as much as I love Augusta and the people here, I find myself anxious for Chris to get called up to the next level.  Of course this is only 'normal' in the minor league world.  When a player is performing well, they move up. What I'm being shown is that I don't need to be content with normal.  There is a reason that Chris and I are in Augusta.  God has a very specific reason for where we are.  The guys on the team are from all over, and the majority of them have not grown up like we have.  We are here to build relationships and be a light for Christ.  I should not only be content for the selfish reason of liking being back in the south.  I should be content with the fact that God has a purpose for us being here.  

I have a major discontent with the title "stay at home wife". (Stay at home Mom has a better ring, but once again I'm being discontent). I hate getting asked the question, "So what do you do?".  Well, I clean our tiny apartment (which takes all of ten minutes).  I do all of our two or three dishes (we don't have real plates here...sorry earth).  I run any errands (Kroger is less than half a mile away).  I play with the dogs (there goes the dog-lady thing again).  And then I go to baseball games every night (unless it is raining and cold like tonight).  That is my day pretty much everyday.  I honestly love it and know that is all I can do right now.  However, I feel so reliant when I have to tell people I don't work.  Reliant isn't really a word that I like to use for myself.  I know that I am not supposed to worry about what other people think.  I now know that God does not want me to be discontent with the fact that I don't work.  God is using this season to make me reliant--reliant on him.  I have to be content with the fact that a school isn't going to hire me when I say, "I'll be here from April to September, unless he gets called up."  I have to be content with the fact that God is using this time for me to grow in reliance on him and not myself or my husband.  

I could go on and on for days about how much discontentment there is in my life.  As  I was reading one of my devotionals, I came across the verse we used at our wedding.  God really knows how to get a girls attention.

"I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit.  Then Christ will make his home in your heart as you trust in him.  Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong.  And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.  May you experience the love of Christ though it is too great to understand fully.  Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God."  Ephesians 3:16-19

My prayer is that I can understand how wide, how long, how high, and how deep My Father's love is for me.  His love is what is teaching me to be content in every situation.  I am learning more about his love and his want for a relationship of total reliance from me during this time in my life than ever. I should be thankful and content with this time. 

Another verse about contentment that God showed me today not once, but twice: 

"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty.  I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want."  Philippians 4:12

Paul defined contentment as living joyfully in every situation.  Talk about convicting.  I pray that I can be like Paul and be able to live joyfully and content in EVERY situation that God puts me in.  

God chose this life for Chris and me for a purpose.  He is constantly showing us reasons why we are on the path we are.  I am called to be content in every situation that he is putting us in, no matter the circumstances.  

I hope this all makes sense and I'm sorry for the novel.  Sometimes God is just way too good not to share.  

MK 


2 comments:

  1. Great post! It's such a struggle for me to focus on the present and not obsess about the future! Where will we live? When will we move? God is showing me that home is not in a house! It's with my husband! It's trusting God completely with all the small details! It's so neat that we have a lot of familiar situations going on at the same time! Thankful for your heart and this encouraging post!

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  2. Just came across your blog and I have been doing a little blog stalking haha! You are adorable and I loved seeing the pictures of your wedding!! Like Victoria ^ said this is such a great post! It is a struggle for me as well when dealing with the future. I am praying for patience every morning and learning to trust God with everything. Thank you for being so open and sharing this! Can't wait to read more from your blog, pretty lady!

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