March 26, 2014

Choose Happy

"Rather than planning and evaluating, practice trusting and thanking me continually." -Jesus Calling

It's the last week of March which means this girl is constantly fighting off an emotional breakdown.  For me, this means spending lots and lots of time talking to Jesus.  I am learning not to plan our next steps and I'm learning not to evaluate every single bit of information Chris brings home from the field every afternoon.  I am practicing trust and thankfulness this week.

I've read two awesome blog post by two other MiLB wives.  Cayte at Blog With the Browns and Chelsea at The Minor League Pitcher wrote some really good stuff about facing the end of Spring Training.  I'm thankful for encouragement from other ladies that are walking this road.

The last week of Spring Training definitely brings anxiety.  We find out where we move on Saturday and Chris will be on a flight to wherever that might be Sunday morning.  That sentence alone gives me anxiety.  But if baseball wife life has taught me one thing, it has taught me that giving that anxiety to Christ makes this life so much easier.  There is nothing I can do to change where we get sent at the end of this week, no matter how anxious I might be.  The relief of letting that go to God is something that I wouldn't trade for anything.

This is the verse I will be clinging to this season.  I don't know if I have ever read a verse that is more applicable to baseball season.  

One of my Jesus Calling devotions this week really hit home.  But when does Jesus Calling not apply perfectly to what is going on?

"This is a time in your life when you must learn to let go: of loved ones, of possessions, of control.  In order to let go of something that is precious to you, you need to rest in My Presence, where you are complete.  Take time to bask in the Light of My Love.  As you relax more and more, your grasping hand gradually opens up, releasing your prized possession into My care.
You can feel secure, even in the midst of cataclysmic changes, through awareness of My continual Presence.  The One who never leaves you is the same One who never changes: I am the same yesterday, today, and forever.  As you release more and more things into My care, remember that I never let go of your hand.  Herein lies your security, which no one and no circumstances can take from you."

So thankful for these words as a reminder that no matter what our baseball circumstances may be, we have security in the One that controls our lives.  That is an awesome promise from our awesome God.  It is a time of letting go of loved ones, possession, and control, but there is peace in that when I know He's got this.

Chris had his last start of Spring Training Monday and it was by far his best outing of the Spring.  It was a great one to end on.  He threw five innings, gave up no runs on two hits, struck out two, and didn't give up a walk.  It was a good day at the office.

So this week I will choose to be happy no matter our circumstances.  I will choose to be happy while I pack all the things that I feel like I just unpacked.  And I will choose to be happy no matter where God sends us at the end of this week.  Because in the end, we are going where He wants us to go to serve a purpose for His Kingdom.  And that alone is enough to make me beyond happy! 

1 comment:

  1. Marta Kate, Love the attitude girl!! I was looking at the affiliated teams with the Giants, and I didn't realize that the AA team was Richmond! That is about 1.5 hours away from where I live :) Here's to praying for the best for you and Chris!